I Assume I'm Not Hideous To Guys

Unless they still have redhead phobia, which means they are too young (mentally) for me. I have long, slightly wavy, light auburn hair (like the best hair of anyone I know-yes, I am confident about my hair), smooth ivory skin (another area of confidence), big blue eyes framed by long lashes, soft lips with a cupid's bow, and breasts that I have caught many gus checking out (though they are not even a C cup). Actually, forget that. i don't want my breasts being what gets me attention. I'm intelligent and funny. I don't get it. Why do I have no confidence when it comes to guys? It could be the weight gain that came with the thyroid problem, though I have lost 8 lb and have already toned up a bit. I'll be losing more weight as more time passes, so I should be back in a size 8 before school starts. I wore a size 10 pair of shorts last time Ewa and I went shopping. Even before the weight gain, I was nervous around guys I liked. But instead of getting better as I get older, it gets worse. I guess rejection might actually mean something now. I'm not a teenager where relationships last between 3 days and 2 months anymore.