Even sassy me feels below standards at times

There's nothing really wrong. It's just been a long week, full of stress and change. I'm bored right now, so the insecurities all human beings harbor want to come out and play. Suddenly, my life seemed so much better being a size 8 than the size 12 I wear now. Would losing 20 lb make me beautiful, happy, and fulfilled? Nope. If I wasn't hormonal, I'd be in a better mood. That much is true. Losing weight might get me more attention, but I already get more than my fair share, imcluding random rich old men proposing to me on the street, sexy Latin cops telling me they are looking for a woman to settle down with, and shy 20 somethings smiling at me and softly saying hi. Do I need more than this? Not really. Except...there's always an exception, isn't there? There's someone in particular that I want to go out with. I don't know for sure what he thinks of me. So I'm feeling rejected even though he's nowhere around to reject me right now. He doesn't even seem like he would reject me. So what is my problem? My problem is that some part of me still feels like an ugly duckling redheaded freak geek. I've still got glasses and crooked teeth, but most men seem to think I'm rather attractive. This feeling will pass. I will wake up tomorrow with this as my only proof of feeling this way.

I already feel better. I'm my usual sassy self again.