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Bittersweet
I don't think I ever want to feel this again
I don't think my broken heart will mend
How did you ever manage to slip into my heart?
I never meant for this to start
Now it's too late to take back
Opinion can become fact
It was cold the day I met you
I wonder how I'll begin to forget you
It's cold in here now and maybe forever
Why did I fall for you? I wish I'd never
So sad to see I fall so easily
So bad to feel something so unreal
I wish I could start over again
This time I'd never see you as more than a friend
Then I would not have to think of love as something so bittersweet
I wish it was summer so I could feel alive in the heat

Cold Warmth
Your embrace feels warm
How I was fooled by that
But now I know the cold underneath
That you hide so well
You think everyone is blind to you
But I'm not impressed with your money or status or anything else
You are like ice, chilled to the bone
I thought I was melting you
How wrong I was
You are locked into your icy world
Never to leave
So I let you be


Complicated
It's twisted and tired
Complicated in the mire
And if you ask I'll be the liar
Because I cannot admit to what I feel
For you in this moment here
It's all too complicated
And you and me, both jaded
So why even bother
It's no use
No crossing that line
We have no excuse
So I'll be quiet
And you, just don't ask
I can look you in the eye
And hide it fast, so fast
I won't, I can't, I don't
But I do, if words must be true



Did I?
You think I fell for you
Is that something I would do?
You think you were the first to touch my heart
Would I let that start?
You think I let you in
Did I let you win?
You think I'm sad that you're not mine
Did you ever think you might not be my kind?
You think I love you
Did I ever say I couldn't get enough of you?
You think I wouldn't lie
Oops goodbye

Hiding
I hide the deepest part of me
I won't let you see
Don't try to get inside
I know how to hide
Don't ask what's inside my heart
I'll show no part
I clip my own wings
This canary will not sing
I am not free to fly
Please don't ask me why
I am weakening to your intrusion
I hold on to avoid confusion
Struggling not to let you in
I want to be the one to win
I will not love and I will not care
I won't let you strip my heart bare
I won't let you see my soul
I already feel not quite whole
I cannot let you break down these walls
You will not see me fall


I Can't Breathe
I can't breathe when you're near
Don't come any closer here
Let me get it together
It feels like it may take forever
Don't you dare touch me
A moment isn't enough for me
Don't try to get near my heart
I don't want to even start
Don't say this is what I need
Not when I won't be freed
Don't hold me in your arms tonight
Because nothing else would ever feel so right

I Don't, I Won't, I Can't
I don't love you anymore
I won't let you back into my heart
I can't allow you to wreak havoc in my life
Who do you think you are?
Back off now
It's over and done
There's no turning back
Get a life

Just A Dream
I awoke to realize it had only been a dream
I had not kissed your lips
Nor held you in my arms
I had not heard you whisper to me
Dreams are like satin
Until I am pulled from them
Softer than life's harshness
You never felt the things I dreamed
You never held me so tight
Innocently I dream
Never suspecting all the hurt I'll feel upon waking up


No Right To Be Hurt
I have no right to be hurt
Now that you have moved on
Especially after flashing him
In your face every chance I got
I am surprised that it hurts at all
I have been over you so long

Peaches and Cream
I look soft and sweet
Colored like peaches and cream
Strawberry hair
Blueberry eyes
I am tangy-sweet candy
I am all things nice
I am sugar and honey and cream
I am a fruit tart
I am temptation and a dream
I am innocent and dressed in white
I am Eve, here's an apple to bite
I am all that and more
In your eyes
Or did you think I didn't know?
To you, I am an angel with a devil's eyes
I am impish and lovable
I am naughty, I am nice
I am right here, I am beyond your reach
When that image is destroyed, you will see me

Sapphires and Emeralds
I never saw beauty in emeralds before
And sapphires I have seen all too often
Topaz was mysterious
Tiger's eye even better
Onyx was haunting and rare
Ruby would have been frightening
Opal strange and beyond possible
I could have gone without
My entire life
Loving only topaz and tiger'e eye
I did not ask for this
I asked to remain as I was
Not to contemplate sapphires and emeralds
Not to be tempted by shiny jewels
I would have had none of it


Sweeter Than Honey
Some say love is the sweetest emotion
Where did they get that notion?
Love is often bittersweet
Fading away after the summer heat
Show me a love that lasts
That doesn't fade fast
I'll take note of it
But I won't care a bit
I'm done with love, maybe forever
Though I won't quite say never


Those Eyes
Those eyes
They once captured my heart
More than your sweet smile
More than your soft words
More than your embrace
They were so gentle
And warm, oh so warm
I could not resist
It was beautiful to finally fall
To let myself feel finally
To learn the depths of love
I was in heaven
But then I fell back to earth
To feel an everlasting hurt
Tossed out of paradise
Into the cold world
You never would let yourself love me
I am so ashamed
Why did I let myself be vulnerable?
Why wasn't I good enough for you?


Well That's The Way It Goes
One look in your eyes made me melt
It was more than I had ever felt
I can't go back to where I was before
No matter where life takes me love was sure
I was tender and vulnerable only inside
You'll never know the tears I've cried
I thought it was meant to be
But you just could not love me
You were my deepest desire, precious dream
Love is not as it seems
I would have cherished you forever
But I know when to say never
I don't regret opening my heart to you
It wasn't hard to do
I'll never forget you even if I love again
Someday perhaps my broken heart will mend
Maybe some hope remains, but I'm not sure
I know you were the one I could adore
But unless your heart softens, goodbye
I'll never say I love you, never reveal I cry


Winter Dreams
Haunting me like shadows after dusk
Soft breeze whispering "hush, hush"
Silky like summer rain
Does anything remain the same?
I am torn between future and past
Built to break, built to last
Caught between mystery and what I know
Winter dreams or summer glow
Light reflected upon sand and sea
Free will or destiny?
Winter is full of hidden things
I understand the joy and sorrow summer brings
Why be so awakened in winter's grasp?
I would far prefer summer's gentle clasp